Seven years ago, God took me on a journey of getting to know him on a deeper level, of the restoration of my identity, of making me whole and teaching me his word, while he answered crucial questions I had. It wasn’t an easy journey, or painless, but it was worth it.
I lost my sight when I was seven years old and I left my home and family in Suriname, South America, to move to the Netherlands and live with my dad’s family.I had just lost my full sight, survived death three times and went to live with people I barely knew. I hadn’t processed being blind, nor accepted it. I adapted to my new life, put the trauma away and continued with life.
My dad’s family sent me to a Christian institute for the blind. I grew up with Hinduism and Christianity, since my family believed in Hinduism. These years apart from my parents and siblings were not easy. I suffered from lack of love and emotional abandonment. Still, I found ways to cope with it all.
At age fifteen I chose to make Jesus my Savior. My parents and siblings also migrated to the Netherlands and we were a family again, though they were like strangers to me, especially when I broke with all the Hinduism rituals and told them that I’d become a Christian.
Through the years I struggled with the expectations and limitations the world put on me, deciding what I could or couldn’t do, having no sight. People spoke words over me, that hurt and destroyed my identity.
These past years on this journey with God I found that he restored many of those areas where I suffered. The more I get to know him, the more I go to him to ask who I am and who I am supposed to be, what he wants me to be and where, what he is calling me for, etc. It is a challenge to live one’s life like that, because people don’t understand it, many times fellow-believers don’t understand it. But, aiming for what God has in mind for me brought me more peace and wholeness than anything else. I choose to let God define who I am and what my limitations are. I hope my story will help you with your story.
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